Julz, one of my closest friends..my classmate (ENLI)..my roommate for 1 year..churchmate/part of my bible study group. She knows everything about me : ) my pain, my joy, my desires and my faith.
She's been through a lot PERO ISANG BAGAY ANG HINANGAAN KO...OBEDIENT! No matter what gagawin nya ang alam nya ay dapat, kung ano ang sinasabi ng bibliya..kung ano ang sinasabi ng Diyos sa kanya.
Ang multiply account ko ay tungkol sa buhay ko at dahil parte ka ng buhay ko isusulat ko ang laman ng puso mo : ) Julz, salamat sa pagtitiwala a lot of times nakita mo kahinaan ko at pagkakamali ko pero kahit kelan hindi ko nakita na nawalan ka ng tiwala sa akin as your friend and discipler : )
IM VERY PROUD OF YOU, GALING SA PUSO KO YAN! : )
I Became Unfaithful.
Will He forgive me? I can’t look at His face… not even a glance. How dare me do something I know would hurt the One I love the most? Suddenly, I was clothed with shame. I don’t think He’s still willing to take me back. I’m not worthy. He doesn’t deserve to be treated like this after all He has done for me. I don’t deserve it but HE FORGAVE ME.
The moment He told me He had forgiven me, I felt okay. I made myself become pre-occupied with so many works. In a way, it helped me kinda forget what happened.
But it haunted me.
I still can’t believe it—I chose to with the other one instead of being with Him. Seemed like I can’t forgive myself.
Can I? By His grace. If not for His grace, I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself. If I believed all the lies, I would have been crying all day up until now, unable to forgive myself for what I did. But His love kept me…to be strong, to move on and to face the world. His constant reminder of His mercy and kindness enabled me to forgive myself. He has forgiven me. Why shouldn’t I forgive myself?
With His help, I DECIDED to FORGIVE MYSELF.
I thought it was over.
One night, after an exhausting day when I was about to sleep, I remembered the man. Suddenly, something gripped my heart and I couldn’t help it…My tears burst out. It was so painful that I could hardly breathe. I realized I was hurting because I chose him…but he left me…hanging. Have I forgiven him? I couldn’t answer the question. I was hurt. He hurt me.
But why will I not forgive the person who wronged me when I have been forgiven by the One I have wronged? It was a tough decision…
BUT I DECIDED TO FORGIVE THE MAN.
Because now, I’m back in the sweet, loving arms of the One who has always loved me, I’m okay. And I’ll always be okay as long as I’m with Him.
I thank Him for His forgiveness which enabled me to forgive myself (for hurting Him) and the person who hurt me. It was not easy but I did it because of Him!
He is faithful to me inspite of my unfaithfulness. I don’t have to ask why. It’s all because He loves me.
I Cor. 13. Love keeps no record of wrong.
Juliet Medina
April 5, 2008
Sta. Mesa, Manila
